Since I’ve been back, I admit, I’ve been caught in a slump.
Sometimes I feel as if 10 different ‘to dos’ of life bombards me like kamikazes, and my way of dealing with it is to either ignore it till the very end or just skip it altogether.
Finding inspiration or the slightest motivation to workout, call a friend to go do something, work on my bike, research graduate programs, grocery shopping, getting a haircut, finishing the book I’m halfway through, or even cooking food all seem to be this colossal obstacle.
Some call it anxiety, others call it a damsel in distress, or overwhelmed by first world problems… but I refuse to let it take a hold of me.
I’ve noticed the best thing to do, and need to remind myself each day, is that I need to take it slow.
Just last year, I had gotten pulled over for going 15 over. Obviously, I wasn’t going to get out of this one and there was no arguing it, because I really was going 15 over. The cop was a real prick at first, but as soon as he heard me own up to my mistake, he softened up and decided to write the ticket for only 5 over.
Going 5 over in Utah requires a fine for $90, and for every additional 5 mph, it increases accordingly. Which means, I would’ve been fined $270… I guess having a decent sized cleavage isn’t your only way out, but admitting to your mistake can work equally as well (but who knows, say I did have a decent sized cleavage and I owned up to my mistake, maybe I would’ve gotten out of it altogether?).
But I digress, the point of this story is, that once I was handed the ticket, and told I had to pay the fine, a part of me wasn’t even angry at the slightest bit. There was absolutely no resistance to it. That day, was the ultimate reminder, that I had to slow down.
I look at it as the $90 dollar lesson.
You see, when you’ve got 50 different things on your plate, rather than trying to deal with them all at once, putting your energy into one just logically and mathematically makes more sense.
Say you have 100% fuel for effort and you’ve got about 5 different things that are weighing you down. You can only put 20% of the effort into each task. So it’s about focusing in on one task a time. Conserve the energy, and put your all into one thing. Do it slow, there isn’t anyone except you telling yourself that you need to get 100 things done at once.
I’ve also realized that inspiration comes best through others. Those who have been where you are now, where they have failed, and how they’ve done things better, use their stories and lessons to your advantage.
Lastly, although this slump hasn’t completely worn off from my transition back to the real world, know that you are not a robot. Once can’t maintain their motivation tank at 100% 24/7. It comes in and out like waves. So when your unmotivated, or useless as I call it, do something to fuel that fire, and don’t beat yourself up for being ‘lazy’ at time. We all need breaks once in a while, just make sure your shit doesn’t linger long enough where you find yourself as the lead role in one of those sad documentaries about an overweight guy getting glued to his bed.
Slowing down is a skill, practice it daily.